Hello,

I'm currently living off campus for the Fall semester but I'm trying to live in Walker Avenue for the winter semester.
I was wondering how many people on here would be going home for winter break or graduating in December. So I can see if there would be any spots in Walker.

Hi I recently decided to start a new Jrock band on the east cost area in Maryland Washington/Baltimore area.
So far I have a vocals(me) and a rhythm guitarists but where still short a Bass, lead and drummer.
Our influences is:
Dir en Grey
Despairsray
Sadie
Blood
Gazette
Mucc
We are a dark Gothic V-k band like blood and older Dir en Grey. Our lyrics are dark, focusing on the darker side of things.
We would prefer people who have some experience playing bass, drum and guitar. Ages 20+ and will have their own transportation to band practice. We're looking for serious people and not temporary members.
Style is also very important so if your not ready to dress up at every show please don't commit to being in the band. We're thinking long time such as tours, interviews etc.
You can contact me on AIM:Reddragonqueen20 or here.
Thank you

So I thought I would update this thing today since its been so long. Wow! Time goes by so fast (sometimes) its almost been a year since I met all those very cool people in Japan - some > <.

Now when I look back on that trip I just keep remembering what Rachel said "Maybe coming to Japan wasn't about finding a boyfriend but finding friends"

Now when I think about it, I think that statement is very true. I did not have many friends are who wanted to move to Japan maybe go to Japan but not live there and learn so much about the cultural.
Its funny because now me and Ming are talking about future goals when we move to Japan. LOL
Bringing our boyfriends to the penis temple.
After this year I'll only have one more left in school. I keep thinking what I'am going to do from there. I don't want to be a slave to a copration, not dressing the way I liked, not acting the way I like.
Everyone keeps telling me I have to lose the punk rock stuff. sigh......NEVER!
I want to get a job in music but its bad because I don't even have a band now sigh.....
I wish I could find more people who want to play Jrock music. I think thats the only bad thing when it comes to liking something thats not main stream but its funny because Jrock is becoming soooo popular. I wonder what will be the next Asian country everyone will love.

Right now I find myself in a happy spot, I have awesome friends, school will be done in a year, I a very sweet boyfriend who I care about deeply but yet I still feel something is missing in my life. Someone did a tarot reading for me and it said that my life is going to have a change. Maybe that is school ending =D. Well I'll just wait and see and
AYABIE IN A MONTH =D KINGS DOMION IN A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!
AND FORSURE JAPAN NEXT SUMMER!!!!!!!

WOW! Its been awhile, hmm what can I say.
Classes are going ok, hopefully I'll get all A's I need it.
So sad it seems I may not make it to Tokyo this summer, so I'm thinking about winter again. Since I have bills now I need to pay those.

I think I'm going to see Ming, stephi and Rachel, and Chel. I miss all of you, I think I have to many guy friends at home.

THE concert is coming up YAY!!!
Its funny because were all going to like the same thing.
I need to show you guys pictures of my outfit!.

I still can't I've been in a relationship this long, whats happening to me? my relationships never turn out well. lol

Its funny how life works really, just a two months ago I meet someone who changed my life in ways that I never knew that could happen.

Now I'm a little confused about what to do with my self in the future. Relationships can change everything, its kind of strange one person can have that much power over other.

In speaking of people, its funny how people work. One of my friends got mad at me and blocked me because I said "Noting to you but you but after highschool I can't really think of you as a close friend"

Then she blocks me and stops talking to me.
Its funny how people think in the moment and don't think about why the person said that. After highschool she moved and left. I bought phone cards to call her but she would never call me. Then after that we stop talking for awhile and then we started talking again we I found her online.
1) No talking for about 2 - 3 years
2) Doesn't really ever call me
3) The one time I tried to see her, didn't pick up phone

Humans are weak, they don't think before they act sadly. I'm not mad about it though, I wouldn't be surprised if the person was reading this. People need to think about what type of friend they are but they get all mad when someone tells them the truth I guess.
My friends tell me the truth I may say your mean but at least there not lying to me. I try to stay in touch with all my friends that live faraway, even as far as Japan ^^. With e-mails, AIM and some phone calls.

A friendship, relationship can't be one-sided or whats the point I've noticed. I guess thats one reason I dropped all my friends that rarely called me or tried to talk to me in the past.

Maybe it was time that the friendship died anyway, it was going no where. I doubt that I'll ever see the person again anyway, I don't think I'm mad or upset about that fact either. I think its easy for me to let people go these days, since I've been so hurt in the past by people.

Anyway, JAPAN SOOOO SO GUYS WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO BRING BACK FOR YOU????

PS. Work is so boring theres noting to do since like everyone is out of the office:/

I'm still alive and I'm done with Hiro(maybe) Sueng-yeon is my official boyfriend now^^

He's so sweet, I miss him even now..

WOW

I wonder when the person came up with web cams what were they thinking???!!!
I MEAN REALLY, It had to be a man or a slutly girl lol.
Anyway things are going good.
Life is boring still and I miss Japan and Japanese men. Speaking of Japanese men, lets just say the more I'm with one the differnce I see in men lol. He still is cute to me, even though Ming thinks otherwise >.> oh ming hehehhehe. Nasty ass teeth, YES I KNOW. lol

Enough of men
SCHOOL SUCKS !! I hate math
but WOW Maury is such a degrading show, I swear all he does is parde around black women like there ho's
15 men tested who is the father? Its like come on there all like black fat chicks to lol.
I cheated on you 200 times!
Well I think your going to cheat on someone, why even bother getting with that person ne? Who knows just something I was thinking about lol this is funny Click on it! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt2i0ts-uck
I'm 5,000 % sure lol dumb girls
Man he can't dance but he's better then Gackt lol
Damn I need to start planning for December soon doh!

Well me and Hiro are talking, he seems to VERY busy these days. Well me and thegetaway were talking the other day about men who are always busy. when I first went out with Hiro he told me that its hard for him to stay in a relationship since the girls always leave because he is so busy. Well I've been trying to hang on, thegetaway part up the question "Do you think guys who are always busy will will wait for a women who is buys?" Truthlly as much as I like Hiro and Gackt I don't think they would wait for a women who was busy.
I think when guys ask say "Will you wait for me?" There putting there life on the line. Like if a women and man were to get married and he was always busy the wedding would kept being put off and off right? I guess its easy for me to wait for Hiro here in america since guys are gross ><. If I was in Japan I don't think I would be able to do it. Then again I'm sure if I was in Japan things may be a little bit different. I'm sure we would see each other more, weekends anyway and talk more.
I was thinking to myself I didn't really want a busy man for this reason, of always being busy and the fact he may end up getting a mistress one day. >< Since Hiro is his own boss my fears aren't that high about the second one anyway ><. He does not like hostess clubs ^^. じゃあの男まっていいえ。 I don't think a man would wait for a women. If the women wants to wait for the man its her choice. I think even if I got a Jrock guy I would still be waiting.

One a Happier note my boss wanted to wear my chain for her husband this weekend.......what do you think? lol O_o
Today I'm waering my maid outfit to work......hey they want to see it lol ^^

Ok, so I have noting to do until school starts and look at this web site about the top 10 starting slaries for people out of college.
http://msn.careerbuilder.com/custom/msn/careeradvice/viewarticle.aspx?articleid=1105&SiteId=cbmsnhp41105&sc_extcmp=JS_1105_home1>1=10372&cbRecursionCnt=1&cbsid=da5b2de71cde4d91b66514a3e07eb2c9-242213114-VP-4
I noticed that its alll THE HARD MAJORS THAT REQUIRE LOTS AND LOTS OF MATH.
That is just evil ><
I would have done computer Sci. if it didn't require so much math ><. Its like the math part is only there so people learn how to think logical ><.
Anyway today is going to be a long day for me. >< Class and work all day but at least I have no gaps man. Those are a pain.
oh, me and Hiro are over. I have no idea whats going on with him. I tried to be there, or maybe he is busy. I don't know but I just don't feel like thinking about it anymore. I wanted us to work out, I really did but I can't do anything if the other person doesn't either.
Well Time to talk more to thegetaway

and 4CHAN IS STRANGE MAN!!

Sometimes I feel its better if everyone just stays single since relationships cause so many problems and our so stressful.
I'm happy my friend Rachel is happy right now so thats good.
Sadly I think everyone else is still feeling the same right now. Men cause so many problems and the thing is how do they do it, really.
Like with Kei, first I like you and then it goes down from there. Like no why just a bunch of bull shit to cover it up.
Sigh....ah well. I'll see what happens when I go to Japan next time. Maybe this time he'll come to me. Well kind of who I'm with now came to me...lol
I just miss my friends I met this summer.
They could always make me feel better ^^.

Four words

I hate it here

I MISS JAPAN AND HIRO

Well monday I had my date and it was awesome.
At first the strange Japanese guy came up to me and started asking me alot of questions about me. I think he wanted me to give him a blow job or something.
He asked me if I was waiting for my boyfriend or friends and I said boyfriend and he just walk away like that.
Okashi desu ne!!

After that I called Kei and found where he was. When then went to take pictures at parikora which is awesome. I look so ugly and looked so cute. He paid for all the games and the pictures it was so nice. I tryed to talk to him just in Japanese and he understood me I was happy. After the games when went to this place in shinjuku an Arbin resturat. He made resverations for us. I was like OMG. I think I got the whole Japanese man who doesnt smoke. After that went to Kareoke and we started singing Jrock. He sung Dir en Grey to me and Gazztte Cassiss. It was soooo sweet.
When he sung Lets walk this road together.
It was so nice, I wish I was staying in Japan longer

Hey guys finally I can update this thing. Japan has been awesome so far and yes i have a potenial Japanese boyfriend. He is so awesome and so sweet.
He looks just like Kyo from Dir en Grey its so strange. He likes anime, gothic, Jrock, video games and all the stuff I like. Were going out on monday for Karoke, I cant wait thats only 2 days away.
Im taller then him but its ok. I real like ny Japanese has gotten alot better by being here and I decided that Im not going to finsish school in the states but come back here as soon as I can.
Yes everything here is awesome, I have good food, awesome clothes, an awesome guy who really cares about me. He knows no english, just a little. Hes so cute.
Hes like my Kyo hehehehe.

Hey Im　Ｊａｐａｎ　ａｎｄ　ｉｔｓ　ａｗｅｓｏｍ！！」

booo I'm still sick, and I ask why me? Everytime I started to feel better a damn kid gets me sick again.

We'll I'm done with my work with kids FUCK YAY!!! and I only have a week left in america so I need to hurry up and get better. I still don't have my voice back but everything else is ok.

Pack is nearly complete and since I quit I can just study Japanese all next week and rest. Yosh!!!

Can't wait only about 8 more days now.

Well its only two weeks now until I leave YAY!!!. I was looking at hot guys on Mixi the other night lol. Those Japanese underground band guys are so hot!!!.
No seriously I want my Japanese to get alot better and I'm sure it will if I just talk only Japanese and no english.
I've kind of given up on the boyfriend thing.. I mean if it happens it happens but I'm not going to go chase around Japanese guys even though that would be funny.
I'm quiting my job this firday. I'm soooo happy I hate work so much. Damn little kids are so annoying.
Concert one monday and I found out who my host family is soon.. I wonder what there like?

Well, graducation is over thank god. It was just long and boring. I mostly just did it for my parents to make them happy. It was just a two year gradution I still have the 4 year one and the masters one. Sigh.....school never ends does it.
Well if I get into a school in Japan hopfully I won't have to wear a rode again. Also I'm sick >_<, evil little kids at school made me sick and also pink eye is going around. If I get pink eye before I go to Japan I'm going to be pissed, so therefore I'm taking that whole week off instead of the day before.
I can't wait to get back to Japan and get some cool clothes.
^______^ Punk, loltia clothes.

We'll school is over I'M SO F*&%% HAPPY!! It took like forever to get done damn it, I thought it would never end.
Now work just needs to end and I'll be happy ^^. I think I'll be even more happy when I get my ass to Japan ^^. I got my student hand book and then remebered I need to get a gift for my host family. Get them something American and you all know how I feel about that.
I can't wait, I plan to buy all the Hellsing mangas ^^. heheh and OVA's I like that anime. Which reminds me I have to finish Death Note and my Naruto DVD's and some video games before I go.
I saw Spider Man 3 worse movie ever!!! lol, it was fairly dumb I'll just say that.
Only a few more weeks until I can get some H.naoto clothes ^^ can't wait because I need clothes badly. I've been saving up most of money for H.naoto clothes, Takuya angel and some new Loltia dresses. Not to metion I need the asscorys. lol

So me and my mom got in a fight again about being a Jehovah wintess and about how she wants to kick me out the house but my dad doesn't want to. I think its strange how people will throw out there own family members for not being the same relgion has they are but will let strangers off the street into the house as long as they know there of the same faith.
Myabe its just me I don't think I'll ever understand that. Throwing a person I raised out on the street because of one difference in faith. Well personally if thats the type of reglion this is, then I want noting to do with it. Its so funny because then they prech about love but they can't even love there own kids. Its funny because I'm not even a bad kid. I don't smoke, drink, do drug or anything like that but yet just because of relgion I'm a devil child.
hahahhaha ah well maybe its because I'm a goth kid who hates humans and wishes they were all dead.
On a happier note I only have six weeks until I leave for Japan, so I better start cleaning my room for the summer and hang out with all my friends here. I can't wait to see those hot Japanese boys again.
Good thing I'm going to Japan or I would be so pissed about missing Dir en Grey AND Jrock Revalotion but I'd rather not be stuck with annoying american fan girls lol.

Well school is over in one week, I can't wait. Next week all I have is test and no work so its go in take test and leave.
After that I'm just going to chill, play video games, watch anime and sleep. I was going to work more hours at work but I decided not to. I don't think I'll be able to stand dealing with those people all day. I'm off today so I'm happy!!!
I'm so sad Hellsing is almost over How come some of the best animes are only 13 eps? lol OH well at least the OVA's are coming out.
AT LEAST SCHOOL IS AMOST OVER